You're just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off you

And so, it's finally happened.

X and I are engaged to be married. As I cannot wait to publish it as part of my coming post on our recent trip to Paris, I write it now. I'm elated. I'm floating at stratospheric levels while my feet are on solid ground. I'm brought to the point in 1993 when I saw Depeche Mode live, performing "Higher Love" as the first track; I'm reminded of an early morning on Hornsgatan when I listened to Okkervil River's "A Glow" for the very first time; I think of how I've sung "Can't Take My Eyes Off You" to X while lying in bed. This is a feeling I cannot truly describe.

This is unprecedented.

The ceremony ““ to me ““ held what Morrissey touched ((In the song "I Know It's Over"; the irony here is almost Wildean!)) when singing "Love is natural and real". The blinding light.

As I held X's hands in mine sitting in front of Oscar Wilde's grave, I felt everything was in its right place. There was no sense of wrong, no doubt. There was acknowledgement; I felt that I was exactly where I wanted to be, with Her.

She and I have been through much during our relatively short period of time together so far; we have experienced heart-shattering pains, mind-numbing sadness, the unveiling of each other in ever-delving depth and breadth, coiled with mind-expanding bliss, bare-boned happiness, independent togetherness, the growth of friendship and love (simply put) beyond the limits of what I've ever known. I feel the greatest sense of trust when divulging what are my most personal matters to her, which of course partly displays why it is so easy to do. I hope she will always feel the same for me.

All that has happened between us has brought us nearer to each other by every day. Every day.

Life is changing so fast and there's nothing I can do to stop it But when I crane my neck to kiss your head, I know That there is something that I can rely on And when I strain my thoughts to push this thread I sew It's some kind of future that I can be sure of Because I love you, because I love you

With X, I have found trust, immediate honesty and the most beautiful friendship with the person I want to live the rest of my life with. Plainly put: it's Love.

For as long as I've known X, her being has made me hear music, existing and non-existing. Right now, Gene comes to me:

Hello, hello, hello At last I'm satisfied At last I have arrived We know, we know, we know We don't want more

But I greedily do want more of one single benefactor: time. And I aim to treasure and revere as much as I can wring of it for as long as I may.

The sun is rising as I write this. I am bathing in light.